"Healing takes courage, and we all have courage, even if we have to dig a little to find it."
-- Tori Amos
I got diagnosed with Crohn's and Colitis at the age of thirteen. From then on I had flare ups every year or every couple of years. I was against drugs and surgery but I also did not really trust alternative healers. In my teenage years that meant ignoring the signs as long as possible or reacting with a lot of anger. The doors for true healing were closed, because I could not accept the fact, that I had to deal with something so unpredictable. Antibiotics were the only thing that helped me in those days, when the inflammation got out of hand.
There was a lot of trial and error, especially with food. I followed a diet for a few years, that really brought me back to health. I did
not realize back then, why the diet worked so well. It was very restricted and after a couple of years I went off it, just because I became so tired of eating the same things over and over again.
There were times in my life where nothing seemed to work anymore, where I had no support and the the pain was almost unbearable. I experienced almost every complication there is with this disease. Extreme weight loss, constant diarrhea, fistulas, infections all over my body that led to many surgeries and a temporary ileostomy bag. I even went into a coma for ten days. That I am alive today can only be called a gift, and the only way for me to pay it forward, is to share what I have learned.
In my thirties I started to integrate spiritual knowledge into my healing path. For the first time I felt supported on a different level then just the body. I started to realize that the way I lived my life and my attitude towards it were essential elements for true and lasting healing. I studied Reiki, Hypnotherapy, Homeopathy, Nutrition and Plant Spirit Medicine, and along with those interest came teachers that encouraged me to look deeper then just the illness itself. Times are changing and old indigenous wisdom is resurfacing and it is available to us if we keep an open mind.
Looking back I know, that fighting this illness is feeding it. A better way to deal with it is to listen to the message carefully, to get the help we need and then to adjust our lives accordingly.
I do not want to call myself a healer, because ultimately it will be you healing yourself. My work consists of helping you to open up to a new reality, to see your own life from a different perspective and to eliminate the need for your body to manifest illness as a way of communication.